Long way from Home

Im at the other end of the phone crying

Feeling so fucking empty

Like you just finished picking all of my insides out

I wonder how you can say one thing and mean another

I wonder how your heart turns to black overnight

Even when I feel this empty i still crave you to fill the void

But I can’t make your light bright

When mine is dying out.

 

-emptiness

The mind 

I can’t explain it to people. 

I feel like my mind is afraid of itself.  

My heart races faster than my thoughts.

I feel like I’m breaking but I’m still whole.

And yet, they are right about one thing it really is all in my head. 

                                               -anxiety attacks 

Missing white woman syndrome 

Our girls go missing and the world acts as if they were never here.
We say “Bring our girls home” 
It echoes in an empty room. 
There is no amber alert, no outrage. 
Their names disappear in the pages. 
Their faces forgotten like so many many black and brown children before them. 
Maybe if there were white girls, they would be home.